I can't help but also feel disconnected from any type of real society or collection.
So, something that I think about a lot in terms of race is that white is often viewed as like an absence of connection to a culture or real ethnicity, and this is always something that I honestly feel very horrible thinking about because I do acknowledge that there is such – a privilege and a history that comes with being white, and I think that's often something that people, including myself, take for granted. But, at the same time, I can't help but also feel disconnected from any type of real society or collection.
I feel like in a state of oppression there comes – a sense of unity, that other racial minorities seem to have and like a bonding around that versus white is – I don't know, white is the dominant, white is the majority, so there is not as much cohesion or unity within that, which I think oftentimes can be kind of – frustrating as somebody trying to really understand and learn and wrap my head around these concepts of racism and society, and understanding definitely that there is a privilege that comes with who I am, and being white, but it's also a – a sense of lacking in that there's not really anything that I can super identify with as opposed to what I've seen in other cultures. And I do acknowledge that a lot of that identify and unity comes from the systematic oppression that's been in place, perpetrated by whites over time, and that we have rewritten history to be in our favor. But it's just something that I think about as a white individual like where really is my culture and my identity that I pine for.